Just so you know, I’m not an expert on the brain or the body. Rather, I’m on a journey to explore my own potential, and I’m inviting you to join me in that exploration. I expect that what I think I know today will be challenged, maybe even tomorrow.
I’ve spent the last three days trying to decide how to begin writing about this. What is my purpose? What is my intent? Well, I don’t know. I just know that I want to access as much of my brain as possible. I want to feel 100% as often and as long as possible each day. I want to understand the connections between what I eat, what I feel, what I think AND how I perform on any given task, whether it be mothering, solving riddles, playing around with math problems, writing articles, publishing books, or just reading a novel.
A Diet? For Real?
Everything I’ve read so far has led me to a decision I’m making in this moment. I’ve decided to explore something called the AIP Diet. Its long name is the Autoimmune Protocol Diet. My friend has been on it for some time and has found breakthrough, not only in weight loss but also in the autoimmune disease she suffers from.
I have not been diagnosed with autoimmune, but I have textbook-case allergies, sinus congestion that will not go away, and yeast overgrowth that will not abate for more than a month or so at a time. I do not feel sick most of the time, and I’m very productive when I don’t feel sick. But when I do feel under the weather, I’m down for the count. Like today. I can still get stuff done, but I feel like I’m in a fog machine. I can’t see straight, think straight, or concentrate for long. I don’t want to be diagnosed with an autoimmune disorder, and I likely won’t be. But I do want to feel better.
So, I’m going to explore this diet. What that means is that I’m going to read about it. Today my friend shared with me a website called AIPLifestyle. I am not being compensated for this share. In fact, this was the first time I read this woman’s loving approach to calming the gut. I went to her for her food lists, but will return for her tenderness, as well as the information and hope she offers.
The first step is not to change the way I eat. Rather, it is to wrap my head around the idea of going on a diet. I have a lot of emotional triggers when it comes to, well…um…taking away my chocolate. Last week, just thinking about doing something radical like that jump started this mechanism in my lower subconscious. I started thinking more like a squirrel and less like a human being.
“Store for later,” the messenger (whoever it was) seemed to be saying.
And so I did. I stored and stored and stored. And of course, that did not help the overgrowth of yeast. Nor did it help my self-esteem. I hope that confessing it here will help me stick to my gut. And my gut is telling me that changing the way I eat will heal my gut. Rather, it will allow my gut to heal in a natural, drug-free way. I’m sharing this here because I need to make a commitment to myself, and in order to make a commitment to myself I need to write it down. And writing it down in front of an audience (even if it’s an audience of one right now) will make it more real.
That’s all for now. Just wanted to write something today, because I’m tired of feeling like I have to have it all figured out before I share it. I have nothing figured out, except that I want to feel 100% every day. I believe figuring out which foods make me feel less than 100% will go a long way toward helping me reach my goal.
Until next time,